2 stone lost 3 to go.....

I have had a fab weight loss this week. 4.5lbs off!!!! woohoo! which takes me to 18 lbs on weight watchers and 2 stone in total since January.

So tonight we decided to see how many books is the 2 stone I have lost so far this year. couldn't do that as it was too bulky so instead we did 1 stone. it was as follows:

3 Jane Austen books.
4 hard back twighlight series.
2 James patterson books.
1 ben elton book.
plus 10 other books.
it was a bloody heavy bag! and i am definitely not going back there ever again!

on weight watchers i have lost 18lbs the rest of the weight was partially slimming world and partially just healthy eating. weight watchers really has given me so much focus and i can see it actually working at last! here's to another great week :)

happy and healthy

i had my weigh in today. feeling fab i must say. another 1.5lbs off yay!!!! half a lb till i've lost a stone. I have definitely started making wiser choices. even when having naughty treats. sunday we had pizza, and rather then having the whole thing i had 2 thirds instead  but i also stuck to all my points and only ate my activity points. so i didn't touch my extra weeklies  on friday i helped out friends move house and as a thank you one of the parents made us a curry as a thank you. so i had a small portion that pointed well and i was actually full!!!

today was also my fitness test at work and i am happy to say i passed with ease  last year i failed it on the first try and then really struggled with the second attempt (but still passed) this time i felt i could have carried on (bleep test) and recovered fairly quickly. going to attempt the advanced one next year. Its something to aim to

so anyway a great start to my new week hopefully i can keep up the positivity. hope i have spread a little to you all too

big hugs all

xxxx

exercise exercise exercise

So next week i have my fitness test for work! ahhhhhhhh! i failed it last year and had to retake, but i was ill and ended up diagnosed with vertigo so passed when i retook it. but still dread it. so today i did my usual bike to and from work. aprox 1.5 miles to work. then decided to go swimming so biked the 2 miles there :) very proud of myself, knackered now tho! lol

so the diet is going ok. i've lost 12lbs so far, but had a bit of a blip with summer sundae. enjoyed myself then got back on to the diet. so doing ok. miss cheese and cakes and bread. and i really really miss just eating a whole bag of sweets. however i know that this is the best thing i'm doing and i'm positive i can do it.

so goals now. fitness test next week. lose 17lbs by christmas. and get quicker at swimming!

tired but happy

So 6 weeks in and I've lost 11.5lbs. I was being really strict on WW and not eating any extra points. but this week i decided to be a bit more relaxed and not worry if i go over a little bit as i am doing plenty of activity.  and this week i lost 5.5lbs


however it is summer sundae this weekend and i had thought I'll just ignore this weekend. then i checked how many points my fave stalls food is (Pie Minister) and oh dear....18pts for a pie. that's not including the mash or gravy! then there is the alcohol I'd planned on drinking....i think i may gain this week :( must do lots of dancing to burn off the calories!


My biggest problem at the moment is how tired I'm getting. Most nights i get in to bed by 9.30. and its a struggle to stay up that late! I'm wondering if this is a side effect from my new medication. I'm not letting it stop me doing what i want though. went for a bike ride around Rutland Water on Monday, played tennis with my sister on Tuesday, today I'm doing nothing. feeling a bit run down. 


roll on the weekend!

hectic week

I have had a mad week. I saw the specialist last Tuesday and I was so nervous. it was difficult to not keep defending myself. My doctor(who i have now left) has always gone on about me losing weight. in fact his advice was just stop eating chocolate. i never realised until recently that actually women with PCOS can have a major struggle with weight and i always thought it was my own fault. Now i understand that actually i am insulin resistant and i will have to work hard to lose weight but the endocrinologist has started me on Metformin. I know its not a miracle cure and i know its not a weight loss aid, i don't want that. I just want my body to do what it is supposed to. i am happy to do the hard work of dieting. Weight watchers is a bit tough, I'm trying to stay away from the weekly pro points but on Saturday it was my sisters birthday party, with a massive buffet mostly prepared by me. I decided to have a small plate of what ever i fancied, and i probably under estimated but i did enjoy it. and now i don't feel like I'm missing out as i have had quiet a treat, that should last me until summer sundae! :) i plan on a major blow out then!!!

As for the doctor part, well i have actually put in an official complaint with the PCT. I was being prescribed a pill that made me a higher risk of stroke, especially because of the PCOS, something he never believed i had, even though i was diagnosed 10 years ago. My blood pressure had sky rocketed over the past year or so. peaking at about 167/117. When i saw a drop in clinic doctor about repeating my prescription, he couldn't believe i was allowed it. especially with all my problems. i explained the doc just signed the prescription, and the nurse was the one that actually dished it out. to say he was shocked is an understatement. his face dropped! so this combined with the awful advice about weight loss and the dismissive way he has treated me has pushed me into complaining.

Now as for the weight loss, bearing in mind the party and food, i have lost weight this week!!! yay!!!! 1.5lbs off this week. 8.5lbs in total this month. whoop!!!  :) feeling far more positive and happy now. taking each day as it comes and worrying about very little.


You can't live a positive life with a negative mind.

week 3

So 3 weeks on and I've finally been to the endocrinologist today. She was a bit scary i must say, but she listened and examined and ordered lots of blood tests. I also have to collect all my wee for 24hours because i said i wee so much! lol should be interesting at work! she told me she was going to rule out other things too.

So i'm now on Metformin. and like she said, its not a miracle cure, and i am not expecting that, i'm happy to diet and exercise but i just want my body to do what its supposed to! i'm glad i feel like i'm finally being listened to. i'm still motivated and eating healthily :) 

weigh in day today. I've lost another 2lbs and got my silver 7 at WW :) yay!!!!!!! lots of exercise again this week and loving the weight watchers DVD. so all in all a very positive week. here's hoping for another positive week.

xx

Bad week

I have had a horrid week. Weigh in day Tuesday and i stayed the same. no weight loss at all....even though i stuck rigidly  to my daily points and only had 8 of my weekly points. i jogged 5km twice, biked to work every day and i was very good!!!!!!! so Tuesday i had a good cry, went to my group and came out so positive that i was going to stick with it! I was so tempted to have a pizza after group but i felt so much better after that i had a nice healthy salad and meatballs. :)


I've been good though. I've stuck with it, did the weight watchers move more DVD on Wednesday, going to go for a jog today and aim to go for a jog on Sunday too. i feel like this just proves even more that i have insulin resistance due to my PCOS and i'm hoping desperately that the endocrinologist prescribes me metformin, and i hope that it works!!! It's so disheartening i feel like i work so hard and see no results. but i will stick with it and see what happens.


fingers crossed for Tuesday!

Good day

So today was the race for life, i would say i ran about 85% of it. but it was so hot i felt like i was burning up! i treated myself to a twister ice lolly after but its only 2 point on WW. :)


i know i shouldn't, but i weigh myself most days to check the scales are going in the right direction. and today they are definitely going the right way! yay!!! 


very determined and motivated at the moment, i hope it carries on.  The OH is sort of following WW to and it def helps!


that's it for today, weigh in on Tuesday so just gotta keep with it.


xx

feeling fat

OK so today I'm feeling fat and rubbish. all i want to do is munch and eat crap food :( i am going to try and be good but majorly struggling. i really want carbs and chocolate! :( i really want to lose weight, but weighed myself this morning and I've gained weight :( i had a treat day on Monday and a dessert yesterday, but I'm still within my points. i feel miserable but i am trying to stick with it!!!!!


time to do something i think. maybe some cleaning. rant over now.

weigh in 1

So today was the first weigh in. I have lost 5lbs this week :) which is great. we were very naughty and went to a tapas restaurant yesterday to celebrate my sisters degree. however i was very good for the rest of the week. lots of salads, fruit and eggs. weight watchers has changed a bit and salads don't add up to much. but i like the structure it gives so i hope i can stick with it this time.


fitness wise i walked to and from work all week. and played tennis and today we went for a long walk. 


feeling great and looking forward to the race for life on Sunday. so lots of training to do and healthy eating :)

My History

So a bit about me....aged 19 i went to the doctors because i had horrible pains in my side.  I was sent for a scan, and my doctor diagnosed me with PCOS. I put on over 6 stone in about 18 months, my periods were horrific. I could go 3 months without a period and then on the other side I could have a period for 3 months. I went on the pill but apart from that i was pretty much left by myself for the next 10 years. 


Recently i was talking to a friend who also has PCOS and she has lost loads of weight recently and all her other symptoms were getting so much better. I started describing things that were wrong with me. and she told me to get back to the doctors and request a referral to an endocrinologist. This is where i started to get angry.... Every time I've been to my doctors (and I've gone a lot!) he blames everything on my weight and tells me to lose weight. when i explain that i struggle to lose weight he  tells me to just cut out chocolate bars and eat everything in moderation. I have tried to diet and at the beginning of this year i started calorie counting just to see what i was eating. on average most days i eat approx 1300 calories a day. i exercise 3-4 times a week. i walk 20 minutes to work and back each day. I'm a prison officer and spend most of my time on my feet. however i still remain 16stone + and for someone who is 5ft 9in that's makes me have a BMI of over 33. I'm officially obese. yet i try to do things right. its so disheartening that i give up a lot.....i admit to a binge occasionally. but that's how i cope.


So what else is wrong with me apart from the weight and periods.....
well i have a slight under-active thyroid(due to PCOS), I suffer from high blood pressure, for the past year i have suffered intermittently with vertigo, i have had insomnia, inability to focus and brain fogginess, depression, rapid thoughts, increased sensitivity to cold and some others but i could probably go on forever! 


I went to my doctor with this information and he was predictably up in arms about the fact that i had done my own research. I was stating to him that evidence quiet clearly shows the link between PCOS and insulin resistance. it took a good 10 minutes to convince him to send me to an endocrinologist. i had been given another scan and that confirmed the PCO. My blood test suggested an under-active thyroid. all signs pointing towards me needing more help!


so I'm now on thyroxine and this will be monitored. i am going to an endocrinologist on the 19th of July. i have started again on weight watchers and i am cutting out bread and alcohol as much as possible. I spotted on the Verity discussion board a blog by someone else. this seems like a good idea. i want a focus and think I'll try to blog at least once a week. even if no one reads this I'll be able to vent on here and i think it will be very therapeutic :)