hectic week

I have had a mad week. I saw the specialist last Tuesday and I was so nervous. it was difficult to not keep defending myself. My doctor(who i have now left) has always gone on about me losing weight. in fact his advice was just stop eating chocolate. i never realised until recently that actually women with PCOS can have a major struggle with weight and i always thought it was my own fault. Now i understand that actually i am insulin resistant and i will have to work hard to lose weight but the endocrinologist has started me on Metformin. I know its not a miracle cure and i know its not a weight loss aid, i don't want that. I just want my body to do what it is supposed to. i am happy to do the hard work of dieting. Weight watchers is a bit tough, I'm trying to stay away from the weekly pro points but on Saturday it was my sisters birthday party, with a massive buffet mostly prepared by me. I decided to have a small plate of what ever i fancied, and i probably under estimated but i did enjoy it. and now i don't feel like I'm missing out as i have had quiet a treat, that should last me until summer sundae! :) i plan on a major blow out then!!!

As for the doctor part, well i have actually put in an official complaint with the PCT. I was being prescribed a pill that made me a higher risk of stroke, especially because of the PCOS, something he never believed i had, even though i was diagnosed 10 years ago. My blood pressure had sky rocketed over the past year or so. peaking at about 167/117. When i saw a drop in clinic doctor about repeating my prescription, he couldn't believe i was allowed it. especially with all my problems. i explained the doc just signed the prescription, and the nurse was the one that actually dished it out. to say he was shocked is an understatement. his face dropped! so this combined with the awful advice about weight loss and the dismissive way he has treated me has pushed me into complaining.

Now as for the weight loss, bearing in mind the party and food, i have lost weight this week!!! yay!!!! 1.5lbs off this week. 8.5lbs in total this month. whoop!!!  :) feeling far more positive and happy now. taking each day as it comes and worrying about very little.


You can't live a positive life with a negative mind.